Dear Society…

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Quotes like these irk me:

‘A women’s greatest asset is her beauty’

-Alex Comfort

Oh. Really?

Does this mean, I, as a women only become something when I’m deemed as beautiful through others perception of me? What about those moments, you know the ones, those ones we all go through, where we really don’t know whether we are coming or going. The stormy seasons where you really can’t see yourself through the eyes of the One who created you. Where you really don’t know Whose image you were created in. What happens then? Have we then lost that thing that supposedly defines us? Which defines our being? Our existence?

Furthermore, is my worth then fixated on something which is temporal? If beauty is my greatest asset, and physical beauty is fleeting- does that mean I’m only worth something for a small window of my life? What happens after that window passes. Does my worth as a human being to decrease?

No.

I’ll freely give you something which I learnt after years of heart ache.

Do you know what is beautiful?

Grace.

The only thing beautiful about me is Jesus.I was pretty broken, wretched and ugly in sin before I met Him, and the fact that in an ingenuous move of creativity, God found pleasure in allowing me to bear His image, when for years I couldn’t even resemble Him in anyway, will forever leave me humbled. Many of us do not see the love and patience we’ve been created in or with, and when we choose to pigeon hole beauty into strict inflexible criteria that can be whittled down to height, size, complexion and weight- we get this…

‘Can’t wait to watch the #VictoriaSecretFashionShow so I can feel guilty for the 5 Chick’n less nuggets I just had for dinner’.

#’VictoriaSecretFashionShow : destroying girls self esteem since ’95’

When I come to school with a brown paper bag over my face you’ll know why #victoriasecretfashionshow

i can’t even watch the #VictoriaSecretFashionShow because i know it’ll make my self esteem go dangerously low

Regular people must feel ugly when they see Cheerleading on TV. Well tonight cheerleaders actually feel ugly#VictoriaSecretFashionShow

Eating McDonalds because it’s probably the last time I’ll ever want to see food after tonight #VictoriaSecretFashionShow

well…today’s the day all women hate themselves.#VictoriaSecretFashionShow

happy national insecurity day ! #victoriasecretfashionshow

Yup. I’m going to sit and watch the #VictoriaSecretFashionShowtonight with a tub of ice cream and a bucket of tears.

Above are tweets following the opening of a Victoria Secret Fashion show over in the USA, I stumbled upon these tweets whilst blog surfing. It wasn’t only the above tweets that I found disheartening- it was the response to them. A backlash came which saw many insulting the models- referring to them as bulimic and shapeless.

Hello vicious cycle of comparison and cruelty.

Comparison is honestly the thief of joy. Sometimes we demonize someone else, whether it be their figure or anything else that person has to make our own portion seem more appealing. This shouldn’t be the case, when you are content with what you have been giving, you will not find it necessary to insult or covet someone else. Fact. Do I think those tweets in response to the models are demoralising. Of course, I teared up as I read them, completely overwhelmed that we can be capable of seeing our selves in such little light when compared to others. Do I believe that it’s right to then attack the models?

No.

The slim blonde model is just as beautiful as the plus size brunette who is a stay at home mum.
And here’s why:

They were both made by the hands of God- and God is not a respecter of persons, that something us humans do.

Compare the coral reef and then the Himalayan Mountains. Two completely different landscapes yet both made by the hands of God. Both are so beautiful, so awe-inspiring, but they are so incredibly different. Both are creatively designed, with just as much thought and precision, but each one holds a different sense of beauty in their own entirety. So why as humans do we believe there is only one category for beauty when nature shows us there is in fact a multitude? Compare beauty to language. If I chose to start this blog post in fluent Swahili many of you may not be able to understand it. Does that detract from the fact that it is still a language? Of course not. Your inability to understand or perceive something doesn’t alter what it is. Your inability to see God’s creativity behind something or someone doesn’t detract from the fact that it is there. Just because people may deem certain features attractive and others unattractive does not make them thus so. They just have failed to see the Creators creativity behind it all. Unless you are a language connoisseur, I very much doubt you will understand every language on earth. So why do we think that everything that doesn’t fit into our very restrictive sense of beauty is anything but- beautiful.

God creates everything epically and in love..

That includes us.

God knew what He was doing when He created you.

He doesn’t use erasers

Yes, your waist was meant to be like that.

As well as your legs, hips, bum and thighs.

Now it’s a different case altogether if you’re not taking care of yourself. You’re body is the temple of the Holy Ghost, and if you can’t take care of the body God gave you, how are you going to take care of the body of Christ? I’m not condoning gluttony or slothfulness. I’m telling you to start loving you just as God intended you to be. Stop coveting someone else’s portion. There’s enough of everyone else in the world but only one of you. And if the world lost you it would lose the unique gift God made you to be.
I often wonder what a blind man deems as beautiful.

I suppose comments such as ‘beauty lies in the eye of the beholder’ would be a little tactless in that case.
Maybe it’s the smell of dew on grass after it rains.
Or the first cry of a new-born baby.
Or maybe its conversations that start with “Do you remember that one time when…?“

Or maybe it’s kindness.

Or maybe it’s humility.

Or maybe it’s love.

Because such beauty transcends the senses. Not being defined by them, but having a definition completely in its own right.

That’s the kind of beauty I see as having any worth.

So dear society

You made it pretty hard to understand myself growing up. But by God’s grace that won’t be the case for my children or their children or their children’s children.

Because God told me a secret.

He taught me how to see something beautiful in brokenness.
Because that’s exactly what He did when He looked at me

Fearfully & Wonderfully Made

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Hello lovelies

 

I find it funny how scripture has a whole different meaning when we don’t digest it in the entirety of its context. Cue this video. Like many who may not like to admit it, I often quoted the verse’ I am fearfully wonderfully made!’ almost as a proclamation of confidence, to appease my mind when doubt settled in. But then God did something incredible, He let me understand and actually see the verse in the full context of the Psalm (139) and how it severely surpasses just a declaration of beauty.

So here is a video of my findings and what I actually learnt about said Psalm. How in fact, it actually show cases the epicness of God and His creations, and was never just a verse to be used when we doubt ourselves.

I hope you watch and are blessed loves <3

 

Lady In Waiting

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Okay

So, normally I don’t write blog posts like these. Like some other topics, it’s political, and ain’t nobody got time for that.  But the Holy Spirit laid it on my heart to write this and I doubt He will let me get much else done until I do.

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Just sayin.

So we have all heard the statement or made these for ourselves:

‘Oh God, where is my Adam?’

Or

‘Oh God, I’m just waiting for my Boaz’

Or

‘Oh God…when will my *insert righteous man from the Bible’s name here* arrive?’

It’s very easy to tell God what we want and how we want it. But sometimes we have to sit and ask God why He’s placed us in the situation that we are in. What are you doing with your singleness whilst you’re waiting?

Do you view your singleness as a gift or a burden? Now I’m not talking about you going into dead end relationships with guys that are not in God’s will for you, just to appease loneliness. This blog post isn’t about that- It’s about being content with the place God has you in, and accepting the portion He has in store for you.

Now I’m going to be honest and very transparent with you in this post. Since I met God, I never used to have thoughts like that. Pretty much the opposite actually. It was never a case of  ‘God when is my husband going to come!’  More so  ‘Who needs a man?! There’s a whole world that needs saving by You!’  I had never experienced a love like God had shown me, it completely blew everything else that I had witnessed out the park. I met Christ and I was hooked, to me, nothing could compare to my Saviour- so why attempt?

God bless me- at that time, thoughts of a relationship with anyone else was just a burden, not random ones- I mean ones that were destined for marriage. Haha, I’m being completely serious. I had God, who else did I need? I was called to preach the Gospel in desolate war-torn countries, in places where Christians were persecuted, in places utterly starved of God’s love. Someone else would just slow me down. I was utterly content with the fidelity between God and I, I didn’t see the gift of marriage as it was. Now let me say this now, I had a very immature, selfish view of things. A life of celibacy and a life of marriage are two incredible heavenly gifts. The greatest man in the Bible was single- But He divinely came into the world through a woman, who in fact, had a husband (or was betrothed to one at the time)

When I first got saved, I lost a lot of things pretty quickly. I lost my boyfriend. I lost my best friend. I lost friends. I lost a lot of people I loved ridiculously. Sho, even my own brother didn’t talk to me properly for a couple of weeks. You really couldn’t blame him. His sister, who once loved the world like no tomorrow, who could be rude, selfish and uncaring, cussed, swore, who didn’t really care for God (In fact I was the Saul of the household, I had a fun time persecuting the church) Was now a fire baptised, tongue speaking, Christ junkie who would happily spend hours in conversation with The Holy Spirit, regardless of environment. Yeah. I freaked him out. I had never been happier; I had found my Heavenly Father- the best thing in life- who wouldn’t be happy? But I quickly realised a lot of the things I was doing before I was saved, the Holy Spirit would have none of it now that I was. I didn’t realise such changes would have such a profound effect on people I was in contact with- but they did. Huge ones which left me lonelier than I had ever been, but in a weird divine way, seeing me gain one of the best friends I could ever ask for. Christ.

For a little while, I believed any other relationship was just an avenue for hurt- burdensome. I had God, that’s all I needed right? Well true, God is the only thing you need, however it’s pretty hard to do His will when you don’t want to interact with His people. God had a lot of heart wrecking, Spirit healing to do to ease me out of that way of thinking. I was all up on the first greatest commandment. Loving God with all my heart, Spirit soul and mind- but I nicely ignored the second greatest commandment. To love thy neighbour like you love yourself. The issue is you can’t love people without being vulnerable with them. I thought I could keep myself closed whilst doing God’s work of spreading His love. It doesn’t work. Through your vulnerability that’s when the love of Christ becomes so apparent in your actions. Now when I mean vulnerable, I mean completely surrendering under God’s will, not putting yourself in situations which the Holy Spirit doesn’t want you to be in, that leads to your hurt. I didn’t particularly want to get too close to people, I would love them from a far with a ‘God bless you!’ and a ‘I’ll pray for you sister!’ But I didn’t want to open my heart to anyone. One day when I was talking to God, He pointed out that one way to show His love for me to others is to be a vessel of love. Not one that loved in theory, but one who loved in action. One who constantly made the decision to do the right thing for others, love them ceasingly and furiously, even if it was ignored, insulted or rejected. Oh boy. That’s what I didn’t want to hear, I made the conclusion- No deep relationships = No heart-break. But God didn’t design fellowship to be like that. He wanted hearts to come together in the same accord for His glory. There are so many scriptures about the beauty of a good friend or relationship. Christianity is all about fellowship. First with your God, then with others. Jesus didn’t sit in a cave and chill with the Holy Spirit and God the Father ( Something I had asked for more than once, and got chastised for asking for…more than once.) He spent time with God, He made sure He had that fellowship and that incredibly intimate relationship with Him- then He went and shared that with others. He spread the love from the Father with people, people He knew would be shouting ‘Crucify Him!’ as He was sentenced to death. As He bore His cross. The very same cross He would die on for the remission of our sins, Christ showed His Love towards us by dying for us, even when we were still sinners, even when we rejected Him. If God could love me, even when I hated Him through my actions, then boy I could love people, even if I got hurt in the process.

Now you may be thinking. What on earth does this have to do with being single?!

And I’ll let you know. If it’s a desire for you to get married and it lines up with the will of God, then continue to pray and wait for your one day husband. God’s got you. You don’t have to sit around and get all oddly broody over a man God hasn’t giving you yet, before you’ve let God work on your own heart. So many of us think we are ready to be in relationships (In my case, some even want to write off all of them) But have you asked God what does He want?

I was completely ready to say goodbye to all types of relationships, especially one with the man God would give me. Then one day God said something profound.

‘Child, you have absolutely no idea what I want to accomplish by My will through your marriage. You have no idea what I want to use your very own children to bring about to the earth, you have no idea how I want to bless you through this- Yet you are willing  to write off My will for you because you’ve been hurt in the past?’

Oh.

Sometimes it can be so easy to feel something when you’re wrapped up in yourself. You may be angry at God, or impatient because you are not in a relationship. Have you ever stopped comparing yourself to all your friends who are in relationships, or getting married to ask God…why? To ask God what work needs to be done in your heart before you can even handle such a commitment? Ask God what ministry He wants to give you now that you are single? What He wants to do with you in this stage of your life, when you are accountable to God only? In my case I was so ready to write off future relationships before knowing what God wanted to do in them, what He wanted to use them for and that it would actually all be to His glory. Also, I never realised the beautiful gift a matrimonial union was. God wanted to bless me, not burden me. Same way God wants to bless you in this time of singleness. God is jealous for you! How epic is that? He wants all your heart before you can go and invest pieces of it in relationships you think you want now. Listen, your heart must be so buried in Christ that the only way a man can get to it, is for him to first seek God.

*clears throat and composes herself*

I felt myself get all relationship advicey then and I thought I would reel it in a notch. Do you even know what you want to look for in a husband? I felt odd at first, but I was told to include my

*drum roll and other over the top orchestral sound effects like cymbals and stuff*

     …List…

It’s pretty good to write a list with God. Ask God first what He wants to bless you with through the relationship, ask what His will is for you. Then let God know what traits you would like to see too. Embarrassment aside, the Holy Spirit lead me not only to write a list about what I would like to see in my future husband, but also to share it with you guys. And thus, although incomplete, here it is:

1)      He must love Christ more than he loves me.

Seriously, His first love must lie in the One who gave him breath, and the One that even gave him the ability to love me-  and how can anything else work when you don’t put God first?

2)      He must love me how Christ loved the church.

3)      He must see me as a daughter of His heavenly Father, and through respect to God, treat me as nothing less

4)      He must see us as having one flesh. Not just in the physical sense, but in every other way. Bone of my bone, flesh of my flesh. What hurts him, hurts me, what touches him, touches me. Not just being only on the same page Spiritually but in everything.

5)      He must be able to smile at the silly things: I can be pretty silly.

6)      He must take his position as head of the house.

7)      He can uplift us in prayer. I’m not talking about cute courtesy prayers, I mean going haaard in the Spirit. Like attacks know better than to come past my house. Sho.

8)      Our Bible must be our go to source for direction, exhortation, correction, rebuke and learning.

9)      He must be uncompromising in his faith and a servant.

10)   He must be honest, and correct my wrong doings in love.

11)   He must push me to chase after God more and vice versa.

Now once you’ve made a list for your future partner, make one for yourself. What does God need to change in you? If you were to ask God to write a list about you, what would He like to see? What traits does God need to mold or just straight remove? Be honest. Nah…for real, be honest.  Notice that the list for you is twice- three times longer than the one that you made for your future husband? (Mine actually ends with ‘to be continued’) Now start to appreciate your singleness! It’s an opportunity to love and experience the fidelity between you, Abba , Jesus and the Holy Spirit. Let Him use you as a servant. Let Him mold you into a vessel of love. Let Him continue the good work He started in you the moment you accepted His Son, and let Him prepare you for the epic gift that marriage is.

 

Before you start longing for your prince charming, enjoy and delight in being a daughter of the Most High King.

 

Selah

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Selah

Pause
Take a moment
To digest and invest
A thought
In retrospect
Back
Back to the beginning
When the first spoken word
Was ever rehearsed
When the lips of God parted
And beauty departed
Serenading lucid poetry which penetrated the darkness
Speaking life back into which was once formless and heartless
And the earth grew
Its stretch marks mark in valleys and gorged in lakes
Deep into the surface of its bulbuls belly
Braxton hicks permeate the soil
Contractions contract deep within the core of this floating rock
As the birth of man approached it’s due date
He was kissed with Spirit, truth and life
Conceived from the dust of the ground
Poetry
Created in the image of the grand Poet
Himself

Selah

Pause
Take a moment
To Think
Back to when the world first filed for divorce
Annulling the love that was shown so freely
Rejecting the advances of God
Separating herself from Life it self
As the lips of woman
Tasted of fruits forbidden
The sap of sin stained her chin
And in that moment
The cries of
Aborted hopes and dreams
Permeate the Heavens
Like a beautiful eulogy
Written and composed with the ink of the night sky
Like the first cry
Of new born babes
Destined for death
As lungs explode with restricted life and shortness of breath
Whilst heart beats flutter on emptiness
Then flat-line
Sin became the recessive gene in our makeup
Attaching us umbilically to sheol
Dead in our wages
We became walking corpses
The last breath of hope strangled out
From the pulpit
As statements of truth retracted back into the
Mouth of horses

We
Raised ourselves above what was first true and complete
On fragile stilts we made ourselves gods
Such is comparable to playing Russian roulette
With a fully loaded 9mm revolver to your temple
Desecrating our temples
We resolved to golden calves, impotent idols and desires of flesh
We swept God back
Back, out of mind
Written off like car crash in the Spirit
Flung
From the driver seat
We catapulted head first into the grave
And there we stayed
Until death did his part
In our hearts
Serving the cord
Which attached us to Life eternal

Selah

Pause
Take a moment
To digest and invest
A thought
In to the most monumental expression of
Love
This world has ever tasted
Leaving finger prints
Imprinted on the face of baroness
Impregnating it with seeds of new found hope
Coming to fruition
In trimesters of trials and tribulations
Which saw the Messiah
Humble Himself
To become like us
Like Gold to dust
When the Creator walked amongst the created
When Light illuminated darkness
Life revived death
Like the lips of Heaven giving mouth-to-mouth
To a world which OD’d on it self
Overdosed on the long stories
Which sliver out of serpents lips
Which caused us to slip
Tumbling down the mount of Zion
Landing on our faces
Fallen from His Graces
But yet His Mercy abounds
Yes, His mercy abounds
Far past the boundries
Of my imagination
His mercy abounds
Rather than turn His back on us
He called us back to Him
To a place of Oneness
Crossing through time He
Dipped His Finger through history
He
Left His signature indelibly
He
Reconnected severed cords
Effortlessly
Back to His Own
Having every right to wash His hands of man
Yet never forgetting His redemptive plan
He
Saved us

Unlike Pilate
Who
Bathed hands into bowls of forgetfulness
He pilots runaway souls
Back down the run way of His Heart
Blood washed believers
Returning back to the place of virtue
The human language fails to encapsulate
This act of Grace and Mercy
Which looks like Hands stretched out
Pinned down
Connecting a lost world
Back to a Father that longed for His children
We became precious in His sight
Ones who were once ugly in sin
Became beautiful in Him

Selah
Pause
Take a moment
To digest and invest
A thought

He died
So we could live.

Selah

God, Mozambique and Rambles

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So…

*Nervous laugh*

Long time no see, huh?

Oh- forgive me. You see, sometimes I have a hard time balancing vlogging with…well…blogging. I either go on a writing frenzy where all my thoughts fit quaintly onto a nice web page, or I go videoing mad where rambling is the only way to coherently portray what’s on my heart!

The latter has been the outlet of choice recently.

But oh blog, you will always be my first love *kisses desktop*

Anyway, how are you?

By God’s beautiful grace I hope you all are gravy.

I’ve been sitting here racking my brain on what to post, and then it hit me. SO much has been going on recently that I have been blessed by, it wasn’t a case of what should I post- more so, how much can I get away with before WordPress freezes my account for hop, skip and jumping over the word count.  Don’t even know if they do have a word count. If they did I probably danced dangerously on that line a couple of times. Anyway. I digress.

So did I mention God is epic?

Well, He is.

Let me start building background.

I was saved July 16th 2012. It wasn’t one of those subtle transitions either.

It was literally like God catapulted me from content agnosticism, occasionally blatant atheism…to being completely head over heels in love with His Son, Jesus. Funny. He has a sense of humour.

My friend once referred to it as ‘When the Holy Spirit came and knocked me on my head’

This is not too far off from the truth. In the space of about an hour that morning, my life completely changed, I went from complete darkness to utter belonging and it was when I surrendered…and all I did was pray. Well not ‘all I did’ but to someone who didn’t know God, to pray was something completely foreign to me. Praying to a God I wasn’t even certain existed was just mind boggling, but I was so desperate at the time…and I heard He was a good listener.

I quickly realised I didn’t know how to pray, so I did what any quick thinking person would do at the time, and I played a song. So as ‘Hosanna’ by Hillsong played I just surrendered. I cried, and cried…and then cried some more. I suppose you really don’t know how desperately you need saving until you hit rock bottom. (I realised MONTHS after I was saved that hosanna means ‘saviour’ out of all the songs to pick, that was the one I chose. Huh, I told you God was funny) I don’t even know how I got so far without knowing Him, I mean, now- I can’t even imagine breathing without His Grace involved. It’s weird when you look back on it.

Anyway.

The bridge of the song hit, and I don’t think I’ve ever uttered such words so earnestly.

‘Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart for what is yours
Everything I am for your kingdom’s cause
As I walk from earth into eternity’

Little did I know, that what my heart was praying would actually introduce me the best thing in my life. God.

Then

The Holy Spirit made His entrance into my heart- It was like a Pentecostal movement broke out in my little old sitting room where I was all by myself!  Like that one scene in Acts in the Bible, where the Holy Spirit hit.

Wooooooooooi

 I’m sitting here laughing with God, wondering how I can even place into words that day. It was amazing, epic, mindblowing and beautiful- all at once.

But there is a reason I’m telling you this, I know so because I wasn’t planning to until The Holy Spirit took a nice turn with this post.

So much happened that morning, but there’s one thing in particular, that I didn’t quite understand till this year. God showed me a vision of something that day that made no sense at all. He showed me African children on red sand, with their hands shooting up into the sky as if I was going to pick them up.

It was the first ever vision He’s given me…and I was baffed.

However, I didn’t dwell on it too long. I had just met Abba, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. You can imagine there was so much more on my mind! Now I was saved around two weeks before my 20th birthday, it’s odd because the day I was born again feels like my real birthday- but hey, that’s another blog post. The day I hit 20 I remember just sitting with God and just chatting. And He said  ‘Feli…You know this time next year you won’t be here in this country?’ Okay, I had no clue what He meant. So I sheepishly replied ‘Erm..Okay Abba…’ You see, from my human point of view, I had no clue how I couldn’t be in the country. I hadn’t left the country for years, and plus..I’m a student. My wallet doesn’t rate my life. But I just trusted Him, even though I didn’t really have a clue what was going on.

So jump a couple of seasons from that point to Christmas 2012.

There I was spending Daddy daughter time, so I was just chilling with God- then the Holy Spirit hit me out of nowhere and said

‘…Next year we are going to apply for missionary work’

I stopped, and I asked Him to confirm what He had just said. I usually don’t ask for God to repeat Himself, but when it’s something big like this, I needed confirmation that it was Him- and not something dodgy I had eaten at lunch or something. So He did…this time ending with…Pretty cool huh?’ ‘

He hadn’t told me where I was applying, when I was or how I was going too. I just knew that I was going to do missionary work, the conversation from my birthday came flooding back and all I could really say was

‘Oh..’

What has happened from that point to now is just beautiful, and crazily filled with God’s Spirit, I did nothing- absolutely NOTHING. All the Glory must and will go to Him, because none of this could have happened unless He willed it.

So January was interesting.

After waking me up to apply for missionary work with IRIS ministries (You see, at that time He still hadn’t told me when to apply, so I began to ask every day. The one day it slipped my mind- Abba woke me up in the middle of the night to do it- I told you, He is funny) And after absolutely muffing up my application, asking to go to a place which wasn’t listed, and taking AGES with my pastoral reference, I was sceptical I would even get a response back. I mean I listened to absolutely everything God had told me to do- but from the human side of it-, I thought it was a long shot! But, I trusted God- even when in the physical it looked like there was no chance- but God is far too faithful not to believe in Him.

Then one Thursday morning in February…

Whilst sitting in the library, an email came to my phone. I thought nothing of it, I initially thought it had something to do with youtube, so I opened it casually, and I was met with the first line of:

 

Dear Felicia,

We are delighted to extend a warm invitation to you to visit Zimpeto Children’s Centre in Maputo, Mozambique from 29 July to 11 August 2013.

 

Oh- I forgot to mention. My birthday is July 31st. So when God told me all those months ago that I wouldn’t be spending my next birthday in the country, my dates of missionary work was what He was hinting at. He’s so cool. I proceeded to hyperventilate and then quickly realised I was in the quiet zone of the library, so I rushed to the bathroom where I called my mum and did the ‘David-dance’* in the toilet cubicles. I was so stunned. Something He had mentioned in July 2012 had come to pass February 2013 and all did was surrender, listen and obey

20130312160632-iris (Credit goes to Iris Ministries)

 So.

BY GOD’S AWESOMENESS I’M GOING TO MOZAMBIQUE!

*David dances*

By His grace I will be able to do His work in a place which is absolutely desperate for God’s Love and Presence, and that is one of the most beautiful birthday presents I can ever ask for. (It would be so incredibly appreciated if you helped too! In prayer, support and if you can giving!  Would be such a blessed experience if you helped me raise a gift to sow into IRIS ministries, and helped me get there too! Run by Roland and Heidi Baker- They radiate the Love of Christ so vividly in the life and work- definitely research them and what Abba has placed on their heart!)

Lend a helping hand?

Iris Ministries!

So

God is brilliant.

I’m still stunned by His wonderful Grace, Kindness and Love. Get’s me every single day, and I thought I would share just a snippet of the awesomeness I’ve seen with you. More so as well, that you shouldn’t let the exterior appearance dictate how you should react in a situation. Even when it looks like it’s not going to happen- if God has given you a yes. That’s all you really need.

I pray you remember what happened today. Someone Perfect died for those who always fell short. He died, so we could live. The most un-equivalent exchange in the history of man- But it pleased God to send down His Son, so we would no longer be separated from life Himself. It’s the most beautiful and mind-blowing Love story in history- and it involved you and I.

Bless you, bless you bless you.

I’ll be back soon enough

Feli.

*2 Samuel 6:14

And David danced before the LORD with all his might; and David was girded with a linen ephod.

David dance= To dance like a fool onto the LORD and not care who’s looking, because God is way too good to give a hoot.

What Is LOVE?

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I always ask God to help me love people more, to love like He loves, and it always surprises me the ways in which He goes about answering my prayer. Every time I ask to love more, I’m put in incredibly challenging situations, that’s when I started to realise that God’s view of love and the worlds view of love are two completely different things. God’s view of love is not a temporal fleeting emotion, but the active decision to do the right thing regardless of it’s fate. Even if it’s rejected, ignored or trampled on. Because this is exactly how He loves us- it’s not dependent on our reaction or our reciprocation. He loves us purely because He is Love. So by His Grace as He continues to teach me how to love in such a way…I thought I would do a ramble on it :), sharing some of the things Abba has taught me along the way.

Enjoy and God Bless x

 

 

Misfit.

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I am
A misfit
I just don’t
Fit in
I kinda burst out the edges
Rip the seams
Of the box
This world
Has placed me in

I am
A misfit
I suppose I’m not normal
My foot steps don’t quite sink in
To the impressions of my forefather
I don’t walk in that old Adam swag
I am a Christ Avenger

I am
A misfit
The world just doesn’t seem to understand my diction
I throw down me, myself and I’s
And exalt the one and true living King
a living sacrifice to Yahweh
Although a misfit in this world
I fit into His heart
Perfectly

I am
A misfit
A carnal misfit
Too good for a world
That clings on to dust
Because my Father’s Kingdom
Is waiting
The Wedding Feast is set
For when the Bridgegroom is finally reunited
with His one true love

We are misfits
Because our light
Makes darkness uneasy
The world can’t understand something
God made to be
A mystery
A beautiful
Mystery
Hidden in the eyes of His beautiful Son

A misfit
Who’s Love penetrated deep
into the core of this earth
Tearing down walls
Throwing down imaginations
Reuniting nations
Praising His Name
Creating new misfits
Not to be conformed
To this world
But to be transformed
By Him

You are a misfit
But the Kingdom of Heaven
Is for the misfits of the world
Who broke out of the shackles
Of worldly contentment
To do good in the face of death
Die to self
And become a servant
Loving furiously
When your life hangs in existence
You are a misfit
Because you are Christ’s own
You are a beautiful misfit
Who fits just in
In God’s eyes.

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